One Party Down...
Today was the padawan & his brother's birthday party... I wasn't even sure I was going to go... after last weekend with the Jedi and this past years episodes with the Sith and all her drama (the Jedi's ex wife, new nick name... I like it !) I was sure this was going to be uncomfortable, if not unbearable!
well, I was right about the uncomfortable part... as usual, she wouldn't even look at me, let alone talk to me when we first got there. Grandma talked to me, Padawan's brother and brothers-dad both talked to me... but Sith just acted as if I didn't even exist. I know I should be fine with it... but it simply rubs me the wrong way. I know it shouldn't... but whatever.
I guess it's just... well... this sounds dumb, but I think being invisible to her bothers me... that she won't acknowledge that I'm a part of her son's life.
I think it really bothers her that I "act" like I'm fine with it... I had my camera (as usual) and took pictures, not only of the padawan, but also his brother. I think it was when I was taking the pictures of "brother" is when she really got irritated, so she had to "one up me" by making sure that she & the Jedi did some fun stuff and laugh the whole time... I got back at her by taking pictures of them... and every time Jedi would playfully humiliate her by winning a race, he'd turn to me and give me the thumbs up sign... and she'd call him a cheater and "fake" mad... the entire time I'm snapping pictures of the two of them... one of them is her coming down a slide face first and she's laughing... actually a pretty good picture. I showed it to her mom and we laughed... I think she had to finally just "let it go... so by the end of the party we were working together an separating the gifts to go to moms, dads or brothers dads'... she even carried the presents out to the car and put them in the trunk for us.
I don't want us to be best friends... but still..
OH... and the other thing... people have always looked at me and they "understand" why Craig likes me... I never got that at first...
Of course, I weighed 130 lbs more than I do now when I first met him. As I lost weight, I (of course) bought new clothes.
One of the first "big" purchase I bought after losing 100 lbs was a leather jacket... I've never had one before... and I looked for a few weeks... found one I loved... and bought it when it went on sale. First time I wore it was the new years eve that Jedi & I ran into Sith, she was wearing the exact same jacket. (that night is a whole other post!)
Today... we could have been twins... exact same outfit, both had straight hair (mines naturally curly and she almost always hot rolls hers) with almost the same makeup... Padawan was the first to say it out loud when he saw my reflection in a window... "you look just like my mom today!", but as many times as some of the people who worked there or the other kids moms came up to me thinking I was the "party mom"... I know others must have seen it too...
anyway... I kind of went off topic there... but it wasn't unbearable... it was almost enjoyable... and tomorrow the Jedi is supposed to cook me breakfast... I LOVE eggs & bacon...
Man... todays post is a LOT different than last weeks, eh? Is it the padawan that makes things no longer all about me? Are things going to suck just as bad next weekend when its a bachelor weekend again? I have kept up the snooping (how horrible of me, p-shaw!) and no emails, text messages or phone calls to the married slut... so he was right... if I catch him talking to another girl... I leave...
now I wish he'd just realize that this "being together until we don't want to be together anymore" is being a COUPLE!!!! that if he decides he wants to talk to another woman... all he has to do is BREAK UP with me and we can go our separate ways... sure it'll hurt... but him hiding it from me was worse I think... shit... who am I trying to fool... I gotta stop writing before I start making excuses and trying to convince myself it's all going to be ok.
well, I was right about the uncomfortable part... as usual, she wouldn't even look at me, let alone talk to me when we first got there. Grandma talked to me, Padawan's brother and brothers-dad both talked to me... but Sith just acted as if I didn't even exist. I know I should be fine with it... but it simply rubs me the wrong way. I know it shouldn't... but whatever.
I guess it's just... well... this sounds dumb, but I think being invisible to her bothers me... that she won't acknowledge that I'm a part of her son's life.
I think it really bothers her that I "act" like I'm fine with it... I had my camera (as usual) and took pictures, not only of the padawan, but also his brother. I think it was when I was taking the pictures of "brother" is when she really got irritated, so she had to "one up me" by making sure that she & the Jedi did some fun stuff and laugh the whole time... I got back at her by taking pictures of them... and every time Jedi would playfully humiliate her by winning a race, he'd turn to me and give me the thumbs up sign... and she'd call him a cheater and "fake" mad... the entire time I'm snapping pictures of the two of them... one of them is her coming down a slide face first and she's laughing... actually a pretty good picture. I showed it to her mom and we laughed... I think she had to finally just "let it go... so by the end of the party we were working together an separating the gifts to go to moms, dads or brothers dads'... she even carried the presents out to the car and put them in the trunk for us.
I don't want us to be best friends... but still..
OH... and the other thing... people have always looked at me and they "understand" why Craig likes me... I never got that at first...
Of course, I weighed 130 lbs more than I do now when I first met him. As I lost weight, I (of course) bought new clothes.
One of the first "big" purchase I bought after losing 100 lbs was a leather jacket... I've never had one before... and I looked for a few weeks... found one I loved... and bought it when it went on sale. First time I wore it was the new years eve that Jedi & I ran into Sith, she was wearing the exact same jacket. (that night is a whole other post!)
Today... we could have been twins... exact same outfit, both had straight hair (mines naturally curly and she almost always hot rolls hers) with almost the same makeup... Padawan was the first to say it out loud when he saw my reflection in a window... "you look just like my mom today!", but as many times as some of the people who worked there or the other kids moms came up to me thinking I was the "party mom"... I know others must have seen it too...
anyway... I kind of went off topic there... but it wasn't unbearable... it was almost enjoyable... and tomorrow the Jedi is supposed to cook me breakfast... I LOVE eggs & bacon...
Man... todays post is a LOT different than last weeks, eh? Is it the padawan that makes things no longer all about me? Are things going to suck just as bad next weekend when its a bachelor weekend again? I have kept up the snooping (how horrible of me, p-shaw!) and no emails, text messages or phone calls to the married slut... so he was right... if I catch him talking to another girl... I leave...
now I wish he'd just realize that this "being together until we don't want to be together anymore" is being a COUPLE!!!! that if he decides he wants to talk to another woman... all he has to do is BREAK UP with me and we can go our separate ways... sure it'll hurt... but him hiding it from me was worse I think... shit... who am I trying to fool... I gotta stop writing before I start making excuses and trying to convince myself it's all going to be ok.
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