Nothing is what it it seems...

So I had a bit of a lightbulb moment on the way home from work... The jedi asks if work was any better, because yesterday on the way home from work I had a minor melt down.

I start to reply when it hits me, literaly like I walked into a wall... I stopped mid-sentance... he joked "wow, that is amazing!" because it was so sudden...

a few minutes (?seconds?) later he said "care to profound on that thought?" and I stammered "It's just that everything I felt about my life, it's changed... over the course of a week... my whole future is different..."

Granted... All the dreams I had were blown out of the water this past week, and I was fully aware of that... but I don't think it hit me that every day-dream, every fantasy, every "what if" and "when we"... they're gone... they're null and void... do not pass go, do not collect $200!

He's asked me to come over tonight... I said maybe... he asked if I needed to do my own thing... I said I'd call him...

before I even get the mail separated, he's calling me... telling me about what's in his mail... and then ends it with "well, whenever you decided to come down, there's a present here for you..."

WTF?!?! how are you buying me presents???

I think I'd like to ask him... tonight if he's willing... to really talk... I want to ask him why we're still hanging out when he knows I want more... I'm sure there will be an update soon...

I'm guessing this will be over before it even starts...