no hitch...
so far today... everything's gone "normal"... I haven't had an anxiety attack... I haven't felt like crying (much)... I feel "OK"...
I slept good last night... I'm having work thoughts.... but this isn't a blog about work... one day it might be... but right now... it just isn't...
He did email me first today... why am I keeping track of shit like that? I see my "he broke first" and "he called first"... I guess it makes me "feel" like he still wants this...
how do I keep the anger I had last week... how do I not forget what he said? I really don't want to go back to normal and then turn around in 2 months and do this all over again when he decides to follow thru with what he was planning last week...
Oh... there it is... the stomach pang... the watery mouth... the fast heart beat.... I guess that will do the trick... I guess I'll keep re-living that moment when I "found out"... cuz as much as it sucked... it'd suck even more to do it again!
I slept good last night... I'm having work thoughts.... but this isn't a blog about work... one day it might be... but right now... it just isn't...
He did email me first today... why am I keeping track of shit like that? I see my "he broke first" and "he called first"... I guess it makes me "feel" like he still wants this...
how do I keep the anger I had last week... how do I not forget what he said? I really don't want to go back to normal and then turn around in 2 months and do this all over again when he decides to follow thru with what he was planning last week...
Oh... there it is... the stomach pang... the watery mouth... the fast heart beat.... I guess that will do the trick... I guess I'll keep re-living that moment when I "found out"... cuz as much as it sucked... it'd suck even more to do it again!
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