What else have I missed?
I'm watching Sixth Sense for the first time... of course I know the "twist"... who doesn't by now... the movie was made in 1999. If I recall correctly some radio personality spilled the beans like 2 weeks after it was released or something... I really like Bruce Willis' character in this film... I really wish I'd seen it when it first came out.See, the problem is I don't really enjoy going to the movies... The joy of getting lost in a storyline is wasted and transformed into anxiety with me... I have a horrible habit of trying to figure everything out... whether it has to do with the plot, the special effects, the accuracy of the story... if the shadows in the movie are congruent with the weather portrayed on the screen...
I don't think I've watched a single movie at home (or at MMM's, or the Jedi's...) in months without running to a computer, pulling up IMDb and looking up the trivia, the goofs, the quotes... comparing which actors have done what... I lack the ability to just sit and watch. It drives my friends nuts. Who am I kidding, it drives ME nuts... and sitting in a dark theater, having to be quiet... not being able to think out the errors or confusing parts... drives me even more mental...
I watched the Covenant this weekend and it wasn't quite clear who the bad guy was... and I must have stated at least a dozen times to MMM, "I'm confused...".... I'm pretty sure the writer/director meant for us to not be able to figure it out... but what do I know? I think each and every time, she replied "just watch the movie!"... I mean, come on... the guys in that movie have got to be some of the hottest guys ever (yes... even hotter than Zac Efron ladies!)... and here I am worried about if the guy who plays Reid & looks like Aaron Carter is related to any of the other Hemingway's...
So... riddle me this... how is someone... who's unable to sit thru a 100 minute film without analyzing the script, plot, characters and everything else movies have to offer... unable to look at her own life and figure out what she wants?
And how long will it take, me missing out the best little things in life, because I spent too much time trying to figure out the "who's & why's".
I tend to over analyze the things that don't need it... and ignore or procrastinate about the things that should have all of my attention. I'll wonder for hours about boys who mean nothing to me.. or something someone at work said, that more than likely had nothing to do with me...
But when it comes to career changes, moving to new towns, life decisions... I kinda sit back and wait for things to fall in my life... and so far, it's worked out in my favor...
I've got a great job, a great paying job I should say... a little more than two years ago, a friend of mine heard I was taking a buyout from the old company, she brought me the job announcement, put it on my desk, and told me it was my next job... and it was... just like that. The job before this one was pretty much the same... and the
job before that... and the one before that... People who know me... see my place in life... and I've been blessed to have them guide me.For the first time in my life... I'm taking a step on my own... for something that I'm not sure I'm qualified for... something I'd really have to make an effort to learn to do... something I'm not even sure I'll enjoy...
Anyway... this post started out with "what have I missed?"... it turned into "what risks am I willing to take?"... I suppose that's a good thing... not worrying about what happened in the past, because it cannot be changed... I suppose I need to look at where my future is going... and just worry about that for the time being....
Labels: money making, questionable mental state
6 Comments:
I think wearing the "real boobs rock" shirt to work would be a risk.
Seriously: Its ok, my life has just "happened" to me as well. If your happy (a recurring theme I think) then all is good. some reflection on you life Is good, but it can go to far. shit, now you got me sounding like a hallmark card...
So, I take it you are looking into joining the Santa Rosa police department? Is the pay going to be okay to keep your lifestyle?
It would be good to put distance between you and the Jedi though, since he wouldn't be working across the street then.
I think a certain amount of risk taking is good, but you really have to evaluate WHY you are taking the risk. Make sure this is a move you want to do.
Since I started out here in Vegas doing those exact same job duties they list on the job announcement there, I can tell you working for the police department can and will be the best thing you ever do.
The benefits far outweigh any that I've ever had before or will have again when I move to Kentucky. It's an awesome way to make sure you have job security.
The downside? Dealing with the egos of your co-workers. Either police officers or civilian. You'll also have to deal with some very unhappy people. You'll be the first person they see when they are coming to file a report after being robbed or beaten up or some other crime being committed against them.
To be able to help those people is very rewarding.
Sorry I wrote a book, I just had a lot to say :) *hugs* You'll do what's right for you. Doesn't matter what the rest of us think honey.
You are not alone with this post. I often times do the same as you are. Sometimes it is a movie, sometimes it is music and my quest to download an entire album instead of taking time to work on my goals.
It all comes down to escape. It is easier to think about the stuff that does not really matter in life than it is to think about the things that will impact us for the rest of our lives.
The reality is it is okay to escape as long as we remind ourselfs to make time once and a while to take care of the important stuff that really matters.
I think that because this is all you -- 100 percent your idea -- if it works out for you, you will be happier than you've ever been. Good for you for taking risks, and best wishes!
I think it's all about learning how to relax. I don't think you know how to.
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