it's taken me 2 days to write this....
(this post was started sunday morning)
last night was sooo strange...
I swear, if I didn't have proof this morning, I woulda thought it was a trippy dream!
It started out with the Jedi calling me & asking... wait... no TELLING me that he wanted to go have dinner & drinks with me. I told him I already had plans with MMM, but they were pretty open and he was more than welcome to join us.
so he did....
the trip to the place we had dinner was filled with him taking jab's at the jeep... so I finally got the gumption to turn around (yes... he was in the back) and say "we can take your car if you'd rather!"... it didn't stop the jeep jokes, but I sure felt better.
I think that's the first time I've thrown the fact that I drive him EVERYWHERE up in his face... I've said a million times before, the only reason I get invited to his functions is because he needs a ride there...
When we got to dinner, I ordered something different from the menu... Ham Steak w/pineapple... it was soooo yummy... now, this is something that the Jedi used to make for me a lot... he used to buy the single ham steaks at the store and make them just for me... it was a long time ago, right after I'd had my surgery... so it was nice, lean protien and it was perfect because I could cut it up small... eat as much as I needed... and it didn't go bad quickly... so I could eat it over a few meals... Last night the Jedi said he'd have to start buying it again... I didn't think anything of it at the time, but this morning it just seems like a strange statement.
Out of nowhere... during after dinner cocktails... in the middle of Bar1... he asked for a hug. So we hugged... and he then went into this long lecture about how hugs are important, and how that one felt especially good... and how it made him feel real and how he thinks he needs more hugs... this is mr "anti-touchy"... talking to miss "i'll-touch-you-if-i-want-to"... I used to hug him every time we said good bye... it stopped when I finally realized we'd never go back to the couple we once were... and when I finally got sick of the jokes, (I'd "demand" a hug and he'd "pretend" it would burn/hurt him to touch me....)
I only had one drink last night, so I drove him home.. and he walked me to my door and hugged me again... I almost felt like I should invite him up... but I wasn't staying home... I wanted to go to the "other" bar and see who was out... so... anyway... ya.. .that was the beginning of my oh-so-strange night...
I get to Bar2 and it's kinda busy... Karaoke night... so a group of regulars of course... but also, the fair is going on... I'm not sure how it is in the rest of the country... but it seems in the 2 towns I've lived in... EVERYONE comes "home for the fair"... anyways... around 10:30 (fair closes at 10pm) the place BLOWS UP... people are coming in by the dozens... and 80% of them are young cowboys.... and 80% of them are straight up eye candy... and 80% of THEM are single... (I'm too tired to even attempt that math... ) Needless to say... lot's & lot's of boys... most of them cute...!!!
soooooo... there's this one boy that I recognize... from Bar1... and he's a cute but stupid boy... he's flirted with me and just about every other female at Bar1 and I've seen him go home with some not-so-great choices... once I drove by him as he was making out with a not-so-cute girl, and I stopped my car and looked at him with a "really???" look on my face... he was embarrassed... as well he should have been...
anyway... this guy follows me into the ladies room trying to get me to go home with him, and the girl he was there with (?) followed him and she started beating the hell outa him... she accusing me of all sorts of debauchery... and... well... it was crazy... the shit she was accusing me could not have happened in the 45 seconds we were alone, but regardless- if I was going to make out with a taken guy... it wasn't this guy...
cuz sexy married guy was there too... I didn't talk to him... but damn... the fact that I cannot have him makes me want him soooooo much more. (insert picture of me hanging my head in shame here)
there was other stupid stuff... but I'm too tired to think of it all... and it's already taken 2 days just to write this much.
Yesterday was pretty laid back.... MMM has a new beau... he thought the Jedi was gay... made me laugh... but that's a whole post all on it's own...
The Jedi also found out I've slept with someone besides Prince Charming since him... and it was a rather awkward moment... but ya know what... that's not even worth a post... he no longer has a say on what or who I do anymore. I went 2 long celibate years waiting for him to "make up his mind"... I figure as long as I'm safe and smart... it's all good.
oh ya... the job sucks again....
this post isn't very cohesive... but... oh well... are any of mine?
last night was sooo strange...
I swear, if I didn't have proof this morning, I woulda thought it was a trippy dream!
It started out with the Jedi calling me & asking... wait... no TELLING me that he wanted to go have dinner & drinks with me. I told him I already had plans with MMM, but they were pretty open and he was more than welcome to join us.
so he did....
the trip to the place we had dinner was filled with him taking jab's at the jeep... so I finally got the gumption to turn around (yes... he was in the back) and say "we can take your car if you'd rather!"... it didn't stop the jeep jokes, but I sure felt better.
I think that's the first time I've thrown the fact that I drive him EVERYWHERE up in his face... I've said a million times before, the only reason I get invited to his functions is because he needs a ride there...
When we got to dinner, I ordered something different from the menu... Ham Steak w/pineapple... it was soooo yummy... now, this is something that the Jedi used to make for me a lot... he used to buy the single ham steaks at the store and make them just for me... it was a long time ago, right after I'd had my surgery... so it was nice, lean protien and it was perfect because I could cut it up small... eat as much as I needed... and it didn't go bad quickly... so I could eat it over a few meals... Last night the Jedi said he'd have to start buying it again... I didn't think anything of it at the time, but this morning it just seems like a strange statement.
Out of nowhere... during after dinner cocktails... in the middle of Bar1... he asked for a hug. So we hugged... and he then went into this long lecture about how hugs are important, and how that one felt especially good... and how it made him feel real and how he thinks he needs more hugs... this is mr "anti-touchy"... talking to miss "i'll-touch-you-if-i-want-to"... I used to hug him every time we said good bye... it stopped when I finally realized we'd never go back to the couple we once were... and when I finally got sick of the jokes, (I'd "demand" a hug and he'd "pretend" it would burn/hurt him to touch me....)
I only had one drink last night, so I drove him home.. and he walked me to my door and hugged me again... I almost felt like I should invite him up... but I wasn't staying home... I wanted to go to the "other" bar and see who was out... so... anyway... ya.. .that was the beginning of my oh-so-strange night...
I get to Bar2 and it's kinda busy... Karaoke night... so a group of regulars of course... but also, the fair is going on... I'm not sure how it is in the rest of the country... but it seems in the 2 towns I've lived in... EVERYONE comes "home for the fair"... anyways... around 10:30 (fair closes at 10pm) the place BLOWS UP... people are coming in by the dozens... and 80% of them are young cowboys.... and 80% of them are straight up eye candy... and 80% of THEM are single... (I'm too tired to even attempt that math... ) Needless to say... lot's & lot's of boys... most of them cute...!!!
soooooo... there's this one boy that I recognize... from Bar1... and he's a cute but stupid boy... he's flirted with me and just about every other female at Bar1 and I've seen him go home with some not-so-great choices... once I drove by him as he was making out with a not-so-cute girl, and I stopped my car and looked at him with a "really???" look on my face... he was embarrassed... as well he should have been...
anyway... this guy follows me into the ladies room trying to get me to go home with him, and the girl he was there with (?) followed him and she started beating the hell outa him... she accusing me of all sorts of debauchery... and... well... it was crazy... the shit she was accusing me could not have happened in the 45 seconds we were alone, but regardless- if I was going to make out with a taken guy... it wasn't this guy...
cuz sexy married guy was there too... I didn't talk to him... but damn... the fact that I cannot have him makes me want him soooooo much more. (insert picture of me hanging my head in shame here)
there was other stupid stuff... but I'm too tired to think of it all... and it's already taken 2 days just to write this much.
Yesterday was pretty laid back.... MMM has a new beau... he thought the Jedi was gay... made me laugh... but that's a whole post all on it's own...
The Jedi also found out I've slept with someone besides Prince Charming since him... and it was a rather awkward moment... but ya know what... that's not even worth a post... he no longer has a say on what or who I do anymore. I went 2 long celibate years waiting for him to "make up his mind"... I figure as long as I'm safe and smart... it's all good.
oh ya... the job sucks again....
this post isn't very cohesive... but... oh well... are any of mine?
3 Comments:
Yes, it does cut your posts off on Google Reader....it doesn't do that to anyone else. Hmmm I wonder what the deal is?
Jedi sounds like a bit of a manipulative jerk if you asked me (I know, you didn't but whatev!).
Mel~ I dunno... and I dunno how to fix it!
Jen~ he is... very much so...
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