I need this tank top...
If I can't buy it... I'll have to make it!
One of the things I hate about losing a TON of weight... (ok, so 125 pounds isn't quite a ton, shaddup!) is the fact that my body may look damn good in a pair of Size 8 GAP jeans & a $50 V.S. Ipex bra... but nekid? Not so great!
One issue is, I don't really like fake boobs... a friend from high school got a boob job & she looks great... but when she hugs me it feels like someone is sticking their knees into me, and I like my softness... I love that they move & bounce... what I don't like is that when I lay down on my back they fall into my armpits!2 months ago I had a consult with a plastic surgeon and he said I didn't need a boob job, I just needed a "really good bra"... and he did a fitting for me, and lo & behold, Tori was the brand new owner of some 36DD bra's... Holy hell... when did my bra size become the same as Pamela Anderson's? He also poked and prodded and looked up at me, no bullshit aside, and said "you've got the best ab's I've ever felt on for a weight loss patient..." Notice how he said "felt" and not "seen"... I hurt my back a few years ago and the Physical Therapist made it a point to work on my "core"... so I've learned a lot of tricks thru the years, and under all that extra skin is a nice little "pack" of some quantity...
the problem is... that same layer of belly fat and all that stretched out skin... well, until someone cuts it off... it's not going anywhere... I don't care what lotion, cream, serum they try and sell you... skin is the same as a balloon... you blow it up and shrink it down so many times... it never is gonna look like it did before that VERY first time you took it outta the bag, ya know?
Soooo... you put me in a loose short skirt and a cute tank top with a great bra... I'm cute as hell... squeeze me into jeans, and the muffin top just POP's out... and well... I've got nice, small legs... so loose jeans look horrible on me... like I'm wearing a diaper or some shit... So if you see me, more than likely I'll have on a sweatshirt or something that camouflages the unwanted hangover.And then... we get to the part where I have to think about getting nekid... oh my... it's not even so much as just turning out the lights...
sooo... I look around, and see all the before and after pictures... and think, "is plastic surgery something I'm willing to invest the time, pain and money in?" My answer is no... I'm never gonna be a vivid girl... (nsfw) I'll never be satisfied, even if I have the surgery... the after pictures, sure they look MUCH better than my before picture... but I'll find something to bitch about... the scar, the imperfection, the fact that cutting away all that lose skin still won't let my ab's to show... the fact that now I MIGHT have a flat belly... but my boobs are still saggy...
And to tell the truth, I know the tummy tuck will be an improvement... but if I'm going to always have lingering concerns... I might as well try to learn to accept it all, rather than hope it can be fixed...
Now... if only I could find a great pair of jeans that didn't give me a Muffin Top!
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I don't know the history here, but how did you lose 125lbs?? I'm curious.
Anyways, I know a girl who lost a zillion pounds (damn near literally) and she went and got a tummy tuck. The scars aren't so bad and are hidable in a bikini... she showed me pics of the skin BEFORE the tuck and I was amazed she used to squeeze herself into the clothes she did. (Apparently she used a really good girdle thingy until the surgery)...
She had no boobs so that wasn't an issue.
I was going to go for a reduction (I'm a 48DD) and she suggested I lose weight before I go or the "lift" part would be useless... so I want to do what I can first, then go for the reduction...
I had a breast reduction. the scarring was horrendous, but at least I can breath now. One thing to check on before you have any type of plastic surgery is weather you are allergic to dis solvable stitches or not.
Such a small part of the population actually is allergic that at first my doc refused to believe I was allergic! then she saw the results and I got the re-do for free!
First, I have a white tank like that which says "Real Boobies Rock" I love that shirt. Wear it a lot.
I think you accepting the way you are now would help you in the long run rather than the tummy tuck.
I also think it's awesome that you recognize you may not (and most likely would not) be happy with the results. Knowing that it comes from within is a huge step to getting where you want to be mentally.
Keep your chin up.
*hugs*
What sodapop said...
Poofy bellies are not only for the formerly chubby. I have one and it's definitely noticable. Pah.
I had a friend who got all this loose folds of belly skin after she had her kid. It was so loose and floppy, she would get yeast infections in the folds and we're talking she was all of 125 lbs so she was not even remotely fat.
She had a tummy tuck and told me it was the worst pain she's ever been in. That made me think twice about de-poofing myself.
I also think you have great abs...and nice tits...and sweet little chicken legs...wanna be my girlfriend?
I had a tummy tuck, Be careful and do research. I went to a DR in Texas who said he was board certified.. he wasn't. He was involved in Miss Texas pageant. My surgery cost around 6g. I have an awful scar that looks worse than before.. The side of the scar has dog ears. So after months and months of depression because i thought it looked worse, I gained a lot of weight. I am starting to lose it now, but do the research before you ever let a doctor cut on you. Contact the the boards and ask questions. I did sue, but he is in a town that refuses to award any kind of malpractice. You wonder why he has his practice there. I am 5' 9" I have had a tummy tuck and I regret it!
I totally feel you on every aspect of this post. I've lost 135 pounds so while my weight is cool and all, the muffin tops and cinnabon rolls have just got to go. I've also got that issue of when I wave, my upper arm continues to keep waving long after I've finished with my hand. Lovely! But irregardless, I'm still proud of my accomplishments as I'm sure you are of yourself! And I must find one of those tanks although make mine a t-shirt please...no tanks until I perfect my "wave"!
Love the shirt!!! I am so with you on this!!! I was self consious about my boobes for years due to an ex husband who liked the fake ones. Then I met my man who built my confidence sky high.
I now know men do like real ones better honey!
Okay, I totally need that shirt. And we wear the same size bra! Fwee! We're boob-twins. LOL
If the tummy tuck makes you feel better about yourself, then have it done...if not, then rethink it and find another manageable plan.
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