an akward admission...

I'm not sure how to feel... and it bothers me.

I've never considered myself one of those people who's ever been lacking in friends. I'm a very good person, raised by a loving mother who taught me how to treat people with respect. I don't think I'll ever feel "alone"... lonely... sure... but alone would be of my own doing... because I know all I have to do is pick up a phone and I'm positive I could have a shoulder to cry on... even if it takes me an hour to drive to whomever's house... I know I'm not alone.

BUT!!!! (and yes... this is weird and gross... but I'm really honestly not trying to be silly... this is a real concern)...

OK... so a few weeks ago I went to undo my bra... and I felt a bump on my back and a twinge of pain... so I walk into my bathroom, grabbed a hand mirror and checked out the situation.... yep... big'ol zit... right in the middle of my shoulder blades... above my bra strap. NOT just a normal zit either... big, raised white-head... in DIRE need of being popped. (ok...ew... gross... I know!!!!

OK... 2 things you should know about me... 1)I have pretty decent skin, overall... I rarely get full on "zits"... because 2)I never let them get that big... I'm a "picker"... so it either get's popped before it can "grow" or I attack it with bactine, sea breeze and whatever else I can think to stop that baby zit from growing into a full blown pimple. My mom yelled at me because I'd rather pick and have a sore than let a baby zit grown into a big zit...

So I grabbed a washcloth... tried to reach it... couldn't... grabbed a pair of tweezers... nope... still couldn't reach it... thought of all the different "tools" I could have used to maybe squeeze it or lance it or... something!!! ANYTHING just to get rid of that ugly nastiness!!!

And that's when it hit me... I have good friends, no... scratch that... I have GREAT friends... and I love them all... but I no longer have one of "those" friends... I don't have a friend who can pop a zit on my back... I don't have someone who I could ask "hey... does my breath stink?"... and that makes me a little bit sad....

I don't expect any real insight from the intraweb... but is anyone "catchin' what I'm throwin'?