...some are silver and the others gold....

Today I went back to the office I worked at from 1999-2005. I left on very good terms, but still was anxious to see lots of faces I never see anymore. The funny thing about it is I moved to a job literally across the street... so I see the same cars in the parking lot and faces at lunch every so often, but since most of us took the buy out 2 years ago... the office has significantly diminished in size!

This week 3 of the upper management team are retiring, so MMM asked if I would accompany her to say good bye... I agreed without a 2nd thought, but as I walked into the building, anxiety creeped into my throat and I honestly felt like a blanket of bad energy was thrown on me.

All of my favorite people had left, and I can honestly say I only felt comfortable talking to 3 people I saw today. All three were previous managers of mine, and today I realized they were the only ones left I could consider friends.

Which makes me wonder... Why is it while in school or at work, we see someone every day, they can be involved in our lives... invited to parties, included in Christmas card exchanges, notified of family events... but if that situation changes, the relationship also changes? Why do we "let go" so easily? I often think about people in my past, but rarely do I make the effort to re-connect with them.

Out of all the people I saw today... only one of them I'd like to hang out with again... and to tell you the truth, I would have NEVER hung out with him when we worked together... but I saw him today, he's in a new position and he looked like an entirely different person... he had a smile in his eyes that told me he's in a happier place...

As much as I question my job and it's future... I know I'm happier here than I ever was over there... and I'm sure that shows on the outside too...

He told me to call him... I probably won't...

I have his email address...

hmmmmmm