uh--oh shaggy...

... i have an online crush...

"so what!?" you say... "who cares" you reply...

i tend to over think things... to make things that aren't real, overly real... i've never had an online crush... i've had online friends... e-friends... and i truly care about all of them... but if the internet crashed and burned, sure, i'd miss them, of course... but would my life be any different if i couldn't read their blog or send them an message via forum?

most of them I have phone numbers for... or even snail mail addresses...

but this new guy... he's different... and we haven't been talking enough to exchange any of that information... so i find myself waiting for times when i know he's going to be on... and excited to "see" him... and sad when he has to go...

i don't like it much...

i mean... i love it... but i don't like that i'm thinking about him this much... can someone slap some reality into my ass...