So... I'm sure everyone is just on the
edge of their seats wondering what's up with the Jedi & me... The latest isn't that exciting, and I'm not even sure what direction it's heading, but there was something other than "fluff" said today... and I have to admit I shed a few tears (not bad or happy, just... I guess I'm still hurting)...
I'm sure you can tell by the aliases I've given my cast, that the Jedi & I are StarWars fans... (really?!?! no!!!) Anyway,
Celebration IV is coming up next May we've been talking about going ever since the rumors started it was going to be in California. The announcement was made today that tickets go on sale this upcoming Monday. The Jedi & I both email eachother at EXACTLY the same moment with the "news" and the dialog (via email) ensues. I find really great airline tickets for an unspeakably low price...
and I then write him this... "do you think we'll still be friends in may? (that's a joke)...anyway... we could get them right now, that's a really great price!
but really... think about everything I said 2 weeks ago... I'm really ok with you saying "let's wait" if you think, for any reason, we shouldn't plan this trip...
I know MEN don't continue to dwell on things once they think everything is "fixed"... but I'm serious Jedi... my head and my heart are both still messed up... I have us in one bucket and you have us in a totally different bucket...
I really WANT to go, but I only want to go with you... I want a lot of things that I'm not going to get...
planning a vacation with you put's me back into "us" mode... and I'm really trying and avoid that way of thinking... (without up and moving away)... I'm not trying to bring a downer to this... I'm just trying to keep it real."
His reply... "Well I really want to go as well and I think we would have a blast together.
I hadn't assumed things were fixed with your head and your heart. I guess I have waiting for the proverbial "other shoe to drop"
I know you haven't made your decision about what you want to do. I just think that whatever decision you make should not be a hasty one.
Anyway, this trip wouldn't be for six months, but unfortunately if we want to stay anywhere close to this thing, we would have to get one of the rooms reserved in the blocks for C4 4 day ticket holders. That can be a whole new fiasco in itself. Most of the other hotels in the immediate area seem to be booked already, and I don't feel like spending $40/day in taxi fares again."
To me, that says "let's go"... am I crazy!?!?!
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