and poof... he's gone...

Prince Charming... still charming... still returns my calls... has a "good excuse" for being too busy to see me... but it's been a month since I've seen him.

I'm pretty sure it's over... doncha think?

I'm not exactly sure how to feel... I'm sad, and feeling rejected... but I also know he wasn't a perfect match for me... I mean he could have been... and I really felt like we got along splendidly when we spent time together. But that's the problem... we went from seeing each other 3-4 times a week... to twice... to maybe once... to every other week... and now... now I'm lucky if he returns a text message.

We both will randomly call or text each other... but it hasn't lead to more than a quick conversation...

So... for reasons unknown to me... we're done... and I'm really not sure what to do with myself now...

I'm not really going to bring it up to my "IRL" friends... just because I really don't want to hear all the "plenty of fish in the sea" and "there's someone out there for you" stories... I really really don't....

To sound completely and utterly egotistical... I really was too good for Prince Charming... and when we were together, he adored me... I was "more than" (not better than) him in so many ways... older, more money, better job, good head on my shoulders... and beautiful... I've seen some of his friends... and some of their girlfriends... and we belonged in different circles... and to be honest... I thought me "dumbing down" for him just might work for me... nothing else has so far...

My paycheck may not show it... but I work for upperclass folk, he & his friends/family... blue collar all the way... I loved that about him... my family is blue collar... I SHOULD be blue collar... how I escaped it, I'll never know.

holy hell... I swear... all I have to do is start to blog about this boy and he'll call... with all sorts of nice and excuses and this and that... I don't understand!!!!

Anyway... out of the 10 minute conversation... 7 of it was why he's been too busy to see me... 2 of it was giving me a heads up... and he's too effin' smart for his own good... but basically telling me all about how at NASCAR this weekend he got "stuck" driving around all the "girls"... you know... the ones that hand out the stickers & t-shirts... all while wearing bikini's... but anyway... he underhandedly gave me a warning about that... because he knows damn well the pictures are going to be all over myspace by the end of the week... and the last minute was him telling me he had to be up early in the morning and had to get to bed... oh... and how he had to get off the phone cuz he couldn't back into his driveway while on the phone with me...

fuck... seriously... I don't know what to think anymore....