my room is clean...

and my clothes are gettin' there...

I'm tired...

I do not want to go to work tomorrow... and I really hate that feeling...

I used to love my job... I used to enjoy it... I had no problem working long hours or running all over the north bay doing stupid errands...

Now... I only work for the paycheck... and I hate that...

I'm having a hard time accepting that everything my life was 6 months ago has changed... the person I like, the job I like, the way I spend my time... it's all changing so fast... and I don't like it here anymore...

I look back over this journal and just hate the person I was in October... but I don't really like the person I am now either...

I'm trying to figure out what I will like... and I don't have the answer to that either...

that whole saying, if He brings you to it he'll help you through it... or He only gives you what He knows you can handle... well, all I can say is He must feel rather highly of me, cuz the shit I'm going through Just.Isn't.Fun....