2007,.. can we just skip it?!?!?

so far...

I've been completely broadsided on one of my favorite message board/websites and have been asked to leave... I'm not going to, mind you... but it was quite a surprise...

My aunt has died... she was old... and I honestly wasn't surprised... but now my mom is laying a huge guilt trip on me to go visit the rest of the "elders" before they're all pushin' up daisy's... and honestly... I'm in total denial of their age and hate to acknowledge that they may be gone soon... I also would like to remember them all fun and young and not all wrinkly and gray... yes... I have issues... who's gonna put me into therapy???

My best friend has some serious para-thyroid disorder and has to have surgery in 5 days and she's totally freaking out because her aunt died 2 years ago from complications after surgery...

My job has gone from one of my favorite things in life to the exact opposite, and I'd love to start looking for something new, but I'm scared...

I've fallen for someone I'll never be able to have as my own... well... maybe I could... but of course I'm scared... and even tho he has made comments about us eventually living in the same town... I'm still scared to death of love once again failing me (I am going to go see him either at the end of this month or in March... everyone cross your parts for me...)

I still have to see the Jedi daily... and would rather not... because even tho I continuously think about someone else... having him around means I'll never find someone who IS available to move on with... and I have a vacation planned with him for May... which is already paid for BY ME... and I doubt I'll ever see the money for.

I really need to save some money... I owe my mom again, after being debt free for only a year... so I may end up taking a 2nd job AND stopping all my fun little money spending habits... and going to see AT is not going to be something that will help this little goal of mine...

I'm becoming a hermit... and I'm ok with it... but doubt it's healthy...

My knees and hands hurt... along with my back and hips... and god only knows what's gonna start hurting tomorrow...

My sanctuary is a disaster... my room is filled with christmas leftovers and that means I get to spend the first weekend in a month that I'm not traveling, cleaning... doing laundry... sorting trash from treasures... and finding new places to store stuff...

I've decided I hate almost all my clothes except jeans, sweaters and sweatshirts... including all my work pants and most of my cotton shirts... so I need to get rid of the stuff I don't wear and really trim down my closet to the stuff I use... which sucks... cuz I hate getting rid of good stuff.... (even if it just hangs there)

grrr... like i said... can i just jump ahead to better times already...