Def Leppard said it best.

I've just decided that I'm going to keep repeating the famous Saint Augustine quote...

"Better to have loved and lost,

than to have never loved at all."

The dysfunctional on-line, long distance, realtionship with AT is over... and although I seem to have a future riddled with stereotypical old spinster overtones... I suppose I'll always have my memories...

so I'll keep the old journal posts... the emails... the chat logs... and I'll go back and remember just how I felt when those words were being typed and or read for the first time... and I'll know... that at least... back then... I felt loved....

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived". [William Parrish] from the movie, Meet Joe Black (1998)