Drama is so much easier to handle...

when you're 350 miles away from it...

The Sith is pregnant, and the Jedi is angry, hurt, upset, and a whole slew of other emotions over it... she first claimed it was her first child's father (let's call him BabyDaddy#1, or BD#1 for short), but BD#1 claims the timing doesn't match... I asked the Jedi if it was his, and he said only if it took 6 years for the sperm to swim... so I'm guessing she hasn't put her evil nasty spell on him... she's a tramp... bonafied card holding slut... sleeps around, doesn't care who knows... biggest "problem" is, BabyDaddy#1 still feels the need to get his dick wet every once & a while, so if he's not 100% sure, I bet it could be his... dumbass...

when she went to jail last year (I'd link, but I honestly don't think I ever published that entry).... sorry, I think I've hit a rambling point... lemme back up a bit...

Anyway... I guess the only thing I'm concerned about is the Jedi having one more child to care for... get attached to... and for her to use against him...

See, when ever BabyDaddy#1 and she are "not getting along", we end up with the Padawan's older brother a LOT more than when they're all shiny & happy... and the rope swings the other way too... she gets pissed at the Jedi... next thing you know BabyDaddy#1 has the Padawan instead her bringing him to our house to hang out with the Jedi...

Back to when she went to jail... at that time, the Jedi & BabyDaddy#1 talked, agreed that it was a "us vs. her" thing... they decided to communicate more... to let each other know when they had both kids, to give each boy's father the opportunity to spend time with their son if the need was there... but they also knew it was important that both dad's were still a part of both boys... this third child is just another pawn in her game playing...

It really... I know... has nothing to do with me and shouldn't be any concern of mine... but the Jedi really IS my best friend... he's my house mate... and while he may never be my boyfriend or my husband... he's family... I'm leaving my family on the 27th (even tho I don't start work until January 7th), so we can spend the long New Year's Weekend with his family... he asked me to go... and when I said I'd rather spend more time with my family, he said he needed me to go... he doesn't want to go without me... and so I agreed... I just thought he wanted someone to share the chore of driving and entertaining the padawan... now I'm having to rethink things....

He's asked me to move out with him... so instead of living in a house with 4 of us, it will just be me, him & his son. I told him I need to think about it and talk more when we can see each other face to face... I need him to understand just because I've been dating this past year, doesn't mean I care about him any less... and the two of us sharing a house is going to confuse "them" even more..

"Them" being his family, co-workers and many of his friends... they all think we're a couple, still together... all party/wedding/visit invitations come to the two of us... the Christmas cards are addressed to "Tori & Jedi"... we get the "when are you two (fill in the blank, get married, have kids, buy a house...) even my mom still sends him a Christmas tree, like she has for "us" the past 4 years, and she KNOW's the deal with us, I spent 3 out of the last 4 Christmases with him... so I always thought she was sending them to me, but this year I'm not even DOWN THERE!!!... it's a convoluted mess... and it's OUR mess...

Her having another child is just going to make this whole already messy situation, even worse...

whew... now you guys can see EXACTLY what I mean when I say this blog is my therapy... I don't know any answers, but I sure feel a lot better... just facing that fear... even if it's HIS fear...

I feel like I just spewed a bunch of nonsense all over the keyboard... but so be it... I'll be back to normal tomorrow, promise..