That's my sister... there on the right...

We took some pictures and I'd forgotten all about them until she bugged me to go get my camera and email them to her... she's so danged cute... I wish I was 19 again...

I wonder what I'd do differently???

Would I have stayed in college? Gotten married? Had babies?

Would I be divorced already, like most of my friends are? Would I have had to go thru the heartbreak that is child custody? Would the degree give me anything more than what I already have, only with letters after my name?

Would I have stayed in Santa Rosa? Gone back to Yreka?? Moved any of the dozen other places I've considered over the past 15 years? Let's see... the list consists of Arizona, San Diego, Boise, Chicago, Sacramento, Florida, New Orleans, and Oregon... hmmmm.... and that's not even including all the "fantasy" places I've wanted to run away to... Hawaii, England, France, Greece, Costa Rica, Mexico...

Would I have wasted 7 years on a totally absurd relationship? Only then to turn right around and waste another 3 on another one???

Would I have worked harder to maintain a healthy weight? (not that I was a healthy weight at 19...)

Would I be debt free... or even more in debt than I've gotten myself into currently?

Would I have partied more or less? Would I have 4 tattoos? Would I appreciate the simple things? Would I still be a geek, or just a nerd? Or maybe I'd be a jock, or a popular girl... or goth or emo....

Would I like better shoes and clothes and different music and art? Would I still like to take pictures? Would I still like video games? Or would I know how to draw better and like poetry?

Huh... I really do wonder if my life could have turned out much different than it already is... I'm not really a risk taker... I'm a settler... I usually take what I can get... without too much effort... I've been pretty lucky so far... but knowing that now... and knowing that if I did decide to work a little harder to achieve something "bigger"... I wonder where I'd be...

Just because I've happened to be at the right place at the right time, or so it seems, doesn't mean that my life isn't exactly how it's supposed to be... I've got some really great friends... a good job... and enough toys to keep me happy... OK... so I drive an economical car... I have a great laptop that I could only afford because C!rcuit C!ty gave me a credit card... and I wear G@p Jeans & 0ld N@vy Sweatshirts most days... I buy my shoes at Payle$$ $hoe$ource and my make up at a normal store, and my favorite work jackets and sweaters came from Co$tco...

But I sit and watch my extremly rich co-workers... and their trials and tribulations arent' that much different than mine, emotionally... OK, sure... their retail therapy may cost many times over what mine does... but that doesn't mean that they're not feeling the same dissappointments in life that some days I feel...

Would I do things differently... geez I hope so... but do I have many regrets??? Can't say that I do.... what about you?