I'm bored and I'm lonely...

Some days as I sit at work and try to think of things to do, I find myself wondering what's keeping me here. Here at this job, here in this town, here in this state, here in this country. More often than not the answer to that question is a resounding silence.

Today, I sit and fill out my 2007 calendar with the nothingness that I have planned so far. So I start to think about things I have to look forward to. And I sit and I sit and I sit and I sit…

And the longer I sit the more I wonder... and the more I wonder the more I miss the past... the days of football, baseball, basketball games throughout the year... dancing on the weekends we stayed in town, trips to Tahoe, Reno, San Francisco, Sacramento and beyond on the weekends we had extra cash... camping in the summer, skiing in the winter... mid-week drives out to the ocean just to watch the sun set...

What happened to that girl? Where did she go?

I think she’s still around, but what did happen is all her “partners in crime” have grown up; so to say… they’ve gotten married, had kids, bought houses and moved away… moved to a more affordable town…

It’s funny to have gone from someone who would drive 6 hours straight at the drop of a hat to go to a frat party to someone who doesn’t even want to drive to the next town over for dinner with a best friend…

Has high speed internet taken the place of my social life? Does hanging out on Stickam, reading my bloglines and replying to message boards substitute the hours of phone calls and visiting I did in my 20’s?

Does the fact that I thanked a friend for a birthday card by saying, “by the way… I have a blog if you want to keep up with my life” take the place of the phone call that I SHOULD have made… the hour conversation that needed to take place to update her on my recent life updates? Wow… I hate that I did that now… Glo… I’ll call you this weekend!

Anyway… I find it interesting that I now know more about the people on my blogroll than I do the people I went to school with… I don’t dislike it… I just think it’s a wake up call that some things need to change….